What a harsh sentence it's been!

Yes, I can't shake that funny feeling I have about all this new D- business. I still worry that K- may have put her up to it. Of course my 6th sense may be being confused because there's always this television show that's always behind everything, so in that way nothing has never really been as it seems, or as it should be, so my suspecting that something funny is going on is really just normal 'back ground radiation' if we are to be completely honest. Anyway it's funny she's not contacted me at all this weekend and was too busy to see me last weekend. I think she's just messing with me.

People always do that to me. They pretend they want to go out with me and never show up, or they pretend to want to buy artwork from me and change their mind at the last minute, they offer me jobs and then reneg, or offer me a better place to live then not get back to me about it later.

This very thing has been being done to me since high school. I've come to the conclusion that these losers just get a sadistic kick out of disappointing me. This entire fucking thing with the show and all has just been to make me miserable. I've even noticed certain people getting angry when things go well for me.

That time I got the brand new red car in 1993 a lot of people were visibly upset. I'm pretty sure a lot of them started hexing and cursing me after that. I'm sure that played a large part in how that episode ultimately turned out. Then that time I quit drinking and got that job back in 2005 and everything was finally going wonderfully I also noticed a lot of people acting vexed around me. Some of them seemed to be all steamed up that things were finally looking upfor me.

Unfortunately I'm stranded on a planet of asshole zombies and their media masters have been spending nearly my entire life turning them against me.